A Madman's Destiny

i’ve been thinking

purextcy — Thu, 12 Jun 2008 13:23:50 +0000

i realise now why im closing myself up i feel guilty for taking her away from her children i see the joy in her eye’s everytime she get’s to talk to them and the pain when she doesn’t it hurt’s me to see her so upset and i realise now that’s why im doing this will it hurt less if i try and close myself off from that well the answer is no cause i’ll just end up losing her and i dont want that i love her she is the only solid thing i have in my life she’s my rock i told her once i’ve never felt this way about anyone i still remember the time and date of our first kiss was second’s after our eye’s first met the time was 5.11pm on the 11th of jan this year and i still feel the magic from our first kiss everytime our lips meet i love u baby

it feel’s

purextcy — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 13:26:24 +0000

as if everything is falling down around me i know im starting to close up again but i dont know why. i mean i have the most amazing women in the world and im shutting her out she mentioned last night that it felt as tho were drifting apart and i realised it’s me what am i doing i fear im losing her slowly the more i close myself off but for some reason i just dont know why im doing it

FED UP

purextcy — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 09:25:28 +0000

dunno what do feel’s like she dont wanna be here why lie to me if she dont i try my best but it just dont seem good enough anymore why cant she just tell me what’s wrong she dont talk to me all she’s done is moan at me this morning is she looking for a way out? if she dont wanna be with me why cant she just tell me cause this is starting to get to me

hmmmmm

purextcy — Fri, 30 May 2008 13:20:17 +0000

i haven’t been able to concentrate today i know she was sacred this morning cause she had to go see the specialist but she was really cold with me just not herself it felt like she was trying to push me away cause she’s sacred me what might happen to her and just trying to hide how sick she really is what she dont realise is i know just how seriously ill she is bed im just as sacred cause i know there’s nothing i can do

i give up

purextcy — Thu, 22 May 2008 13:55:54 +0000

i cant do anymore than i have my fiancee is leaving me to go back to her kids i dont blame her i know her kid’s come first and i would never get in her way i cant help feeling im losing my life tho which she is i love her to death i just cant stand there and watch her go back i cant so maybe it’s best i distance myself maybe it wont hurt so much?

A bit worried

purextcy — Mon, 12 May 2008 23:58:05 +0000

just a bit worried atm my fiancee is a bit ill and she just seems to be getting worse she keeps telling me she’s fine but i know she’s not. i just wish she would talk to me sometime’s and just tell me what’s wrong when she feel’s depressed

Well what to do

purextcy — Mon, 12 May 2008 10:35:30 +0000

Hello normal people welcome to my world here’s a brief view into the life and head of a Madman

Just lately i find I’ve been drifting into my own little world not on purpose i used to do this a lot when i was younger i never knew why i did i do it without noticing the only time i do notice is when my fiancee tell’s me I’m not listening to her lol but really do we as Male’s ever properly listen to the female of the species? i mean some males in the animal and insect world get eaten after mating with them ain’t that a bummer? Ur born to shag then u get eaten by the misses lucky us lmfao

Anyway what kind of glimpse can i give u into the life of Nutcase.

I dunno what to tell u really let me have a think and I’ll get back to you

bye for now

purextcy )