i realise now why im closing myself up i feel guilty for taking her away from her children i see the joy in her eye’s everytime she get’s to talk to them and the pain when she doesn’t it hurt’s me to see her so upset and i realise now that’s why im doing this will it hurt less if i try and close myself off from that well the answer is no cause i’ll just end up losing her and i dont want that i love her she is the only solid thing i have in my life she’s my rock i told her once i’ve never felt this way about anyone i still remember the time and date of our first kiss was second’s after our eye’s first met the time was 5.11pm on the 11th of jan this year and i still feel the magic from our first kiss everytime our lips meet i love u baby
Monthly Archives: June 2008
as if everything is falling down around me i know im starting to close up again but i dont know why. i mean i have the most amazing women in the world and im shutting her out she mentioned last night that it felt as tho were drifting apart and i realised it’s me what am i doing i fear im losing her slowly the more i close myself off but for some reason i just dont know why im doing it 
dunno what do feel’s like she dont wanna be here why lie to me if she dont i try my best but it just dont seem good enough anymore why cant she just tell me what’s wrong she dont talk to me all she’s done is moan at me this morning is she looking for a way out? if she dont wanna be with me why cant she just tell me cause this is starting to get to me
